Just because I’m interested in watching shows like Supersize vs Superskinny, Secret Eaters, The Biggest Loser etc and because I want to lose weight, she thinks I talk about weight and think about 24 fucking 7. I don’t. Yes, I think about it regularly, more than I should probably, but along with those thoughts come the depressed thoughts, but she doesn’t see that. I wish she’d stop making me feel bad for wanting to lose weight. Ugh. Just because she’s fat and I apparently make her “feel bad about herself.”

I actually can’t wait for tomorrow, I’m starting the gym! I’m so excited, I’ve literally been jumping up and down, haha.

First step to getting closer to being skinny and becoming the new me! When I’m happy, I’m going to get a totally new wardrobe, and everything. I can’t wait!

• Become more social.
• Lose weight.
• Grow my hair.
• Focus on college.
• Be happy.